My Story

I was naturally being my total self

When I was nine, I wrote in an “about me” book that I would one day have a beagle. At twenty-five, I did.

At sixteen, I asked my mum to take me to collect a brochure for the car I wanted to own. At twenty-two, it was parked in my driveway.

As a child I wasn’t trying to make anything happen. I was simply being my total self: imagining, playing, seeing the life I wanted as if it were already here. It came naturally, the way it does for all of us before we learn to forget.

It wasn’t until 2015 that I truly remembered. I found myself wondering who I really was, because I knew I wasn’t the broken person I was experiencing. When I looked back, the evidence had been there all along: what we give our attention to, we experience.

Collecting evidence

I grew up in a family that chose naturopathy, so wellbeing and wholeness were part of everyday life. And I remember the moments that quietly shaped me. When I was twelve, at a time when we were struggling to buy food and pay the bills, my mum said, “Everything will work out for us. It always does.”

I held on to that. Without realising it, I was collecting evidence: key words and moments that told me who I was and what I wanted to experience.

That’s what we all do. We look for evidence of what’s true. The difference is learning to recognise your own truth, and your body always knows. When something is true for you, you feel it. Your body softens and settles. Your heart space swells. Sometimes tears come. I’ve come to see those tears as the body letting go of what it no longer needs to carry.

When my body said no

There have been many choice points in my life where the resistance was so great my body simply gave up.

In 2015, I left a long-term job because my whole self said no. It came with great discomfort, and a surrender of everything I had planned for myself. That was the beginning. I found my teachers and began, step by step, to tune in to my heart and my needs. I built a massage clinic. Then, somewhere along the way, I lost how to tune in to the unseen map I created before I arrived here. I stepped into business ventures that looked right on paper but didn’t resonate, and once again my body felt the resistance.

But this is how life works. We circle back around to the same choice points. Where once we didn’t take the exit, another opportunity comes along for us to take it. Each time, another doorway of understanding opens.

“Ready is not a feeling, it’s a decision.”

What I learned is that I had been holding other people’s beliefs as my own. I also learned that experiencing what I don’t want is how I come to know what I do want, no matter the depth of it. I have lived through trauma, and even that became clarity. Becoming the version of myself I knew myself to be meant finding my truth, choosing my own beliefs and practices, and releasing the rest. That didn’t take discipline. It took devotion.

Being in the game

I know now that we are so much more than our physical bodies. We are source energy, all that is, here to create, to expand and to experience.

I call it being in the game. Change the player, change the game. I choose to play for the joy of it, and for the expansion of the collective, because the “we” is who we truly are.

How I guide you now

Today I’m a teacher of loving awareness, unconditional love and remembering your personal power. Through massage, sound tuning and gentle guidance, I help you hear what your body has been saying, notice which beliefs are really yours, and choose what you’d like to experience instead.

There is nothing to become. Only everything to remember.